10 años después

Si diez años después te vuelvo a encontrar en algún lugar, no te olvides que soy distinto de aquél, pero casi igual. Si la casualidad nos vuelve a juntar diez años después, algo se va a incendiar, no voy a mostrar mi lado cortés. Aquello fue un gran punto de partida, pero a la vez qué fácil se te olvida. Diez años después, quién puede volver atrás? Estamos en la tierra cuatro días y el cielo no me ofrece garantías: diez años después mejor volver a empezar. Si tu credulidad se deterioró en algún lugar, no te olvides que soy testigo casual de tu soledad. Si diez años después no estamos igual, qué le vas a hacer? Otros diez años más y luego, empezar juntos otra vez.  Aquello fue una linda primavera, pero fue solamente la primera. Diez años después el tiempo empieza a pesar. Me quedan balas en la cartuchera, pero te guardo siempre la primera. Diez años después mejor reír que llorar. Una carta te di, que nunca escribí, que nadie leyó. Hoy, diez años después, todo sigue igual, nunca te llegó. Dentro del corazón, al día de hoy, no queda lugar. Si perdí la razón, no fue por amor, fue por soledad.  La vida es una gran sala de espera, la otra es una caja de madera. Diez años después mejor dormir que soñar. No se puede vivir de otra manera, porque si no la gente ni se entera. Diez años después, quién puede volver atrás? Diez años después, mejor decir que callar.

Devils feed on the seeds of the Soul.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for anymore,
I just know that I'm harder to console.

I don't see who I'm trying to be instead of me,
but the key is a question of control.

Can you say what you're trying to play anyway?
I just pay while you're breaking all the rules.

All the signs that I find have been underlined,
devils thrive on the drive that is fueled.

All this running around, well it's getting me down. Just give me a pain that I'm used to.

I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive,
you just need to achieve something that rings true.

There's a hole in your soul like an animal,
with no conscience, repentance, oh no.
Close your eyes, pay the price for your paradise,
devils feed on the seeds of the soul.

I can't conceal what I feel, what I know is real.
No mistaking the faking, I care.
With a prayer in the air, I will leave it there
on a note full of hope, not despair.

All this running around, well it's getting me down.
Just give me a pain that I'm used to.

I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive,
you just need to achieve something that rings true.

Living in the Dream of You & Me, is not the way my life should be.

I saw a picture of you, hanging in an empty hallway.
I heard a voice that I knew, and I couldn't walk away.
It took me back to the end of everything.
I taste it all, I taste it all the tears, again.

Outside the rain's fallin' down, there's not a drop that hits me.
Scream at the sky but no sound, is leavin' my lips.
It's like I can't even feel, after the way you touched me.
I'm not asleep, but I'm not awake,
after the way you loved me.

I can't turn this around,
I keep running into walls that I can't break down.
I said I just wander around,
with my eyes wide shut because of you.

I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.
I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.
Let me out of this dream.

Everywhere that I go, I see another memory.
And all the places we used to know, they're always there to haunt me.
I walk around and I feel so lost and lonely.
You're everything that I want, but you don't want me.

I can't turn this around,
I keep running into walls that I can't break down.
I said I just wander around,
with my eyes wide shut because of you.

I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.
I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.
Let me out of this dream, dream.
Let me out of this, dream.

I can't turn this around,
I keep running into walls that I can't break down.
I said I just wander around,
with my eyes wide shut because of you.
I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.

I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.

I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.

I'm a sleepwalker, walker, walker.

Let me out of this dream..

You’re a love I gotta lose.

I start to lose my senses, yeah.

        When I’m wide awake, seeing things straight, you’re a love I gotta lose. Even though you never change, you'll stay the same, I keep on waking up to you. And I don’t know why, 'cause I know you’re gonna make me cry. And I don’t know how, but you do it to me every time.
        I fall into your lies, I start to lose my senses. When I look in your eyes, I become defenseless. My heart you hold and you won’t let go, it’s so paralyzing. Under your spell, girl you got control, you’re so hypnotizing. You got me sleep walking, you got me sleep walking. You got me…
        Odd it seems, you’re in every dream, there’s nowhere I can get away. And you stole from me, my sanity, but I never seem to make an escape. But why? When I know you’re gonna make me cry. And I don’t know how, but you do it to me every time.
        I fall into your lies, I start to lose my senses. When I look in your eyes, I become defenseless. My heart you hold and you won’t let go, it’s so paralyzing. Under your spell, girl you got control, you’re so hypnotizing. You got me sleep walking, you got me sleep walking. You got me…
        Can’t wait for the sunrise, to wake up and open my eyes. Somebody pinch me, so I can erase the spell she has on my life. Jay snap out the sleeping, sip on some coffee, we’re leaving. But her love will always keep you asleep.
       I fall into your lies, I start to lose my senses. When I look in your eyes, I become defenseless. My heart you hold and you won’t let go, it’s so paralyzing. Under your spell, girl you got control, you’re so hypnotizing. You got me sleep walking, you got me sleep walking.
You got me…

I should go, but I can't overcome this chemistry*.

I'm touching hands with someone seriously beautiful*; I feel it burning and I know I'm standing far too close. I'm telling lies and if it shows I see that he don't care, I know he wants to take me home and get on out of here.

 

 
But I got someone waiting at home, he says he's in love, but lately I just don't know; he don't see me, or make me feel hot. Banging in the club with all my ladies, and he don't know that he's about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me. He about to lose me. He about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me. He about to lose me.

 

 

I feel my body is in focus as he touches me, and I should go but I can't overcome this chemistry. He pulls me close before he whispers something in my ear, he says he wants to take me home and get me out of here.

 
 

I got someone waiting at home, he says he's in love, but lately I just don't know; he don't see me or make me feel hot. Banging in the club with all of my ladies and he don't know that he's about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me. He about to lose me. He about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me. He about to lose me.

 

 

Someone by the bar keeps looking at us dancing, I see him staring at me, I see what he wants to be. Someone by the bar keeps looking at us dancing, I gotta, I gotta go; he don't know that he's about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me.

 

He about to lose me. He about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me. He about to lose me. He about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me. He about to lose me. He about to lose, about to lose, about to lose me. He about to lose me.

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*(I'm touching hands with

someone seriously beautiful).

Azul Platónico.

El marfil en tu piel y el

colorado en tu alma.

    Cada parpadeo es una vista hacia otro mundo, hacia ese recóndito lugar escondido en las profundidades de ese negro, negro pantano de debilidades. En la oscuridad supe recolectar todas y cada una de ellas, conocerlas por lo que realmente eran. Amarte a cada detalle, es más fácil que amarte en conjunto. Soñar despierta con tenerte al lado puede parecer extraño cuando, de hecho, estás al lado mío; pero sencillamente sólo refleja la unidad en la que te siento.. Y es que deshaces kilómetros de hielo gris para darme el fruto de todos mis caprichos, ¿cómo no adorar este privilegio exclusivo de tener ese fuego tuyo que no quema, ardiendo entre mis manos? Pero, ¿cómo no detestar furiosamente el frío de tu piel de mármol?
    Si todo es discutible, y en tanto todo es filosofable ¿cómo es que todo siempre ha de reducirse a la relación entre el quiero y el puedo? Hoy no sé si puedo quererte, pero te quiero; aunque quizás, en realidad, sólo quiera amarte.
    Amarte. Amarte de a momentos, de a partes, de a fragmentos. Amarte de a virtudes, amarte de a defectos. Amarte en tu perfecta imperfección. Amarte en tus sueños, en tus despertares. Amarte sobre los vicios y amarte sobre todo juicio. Amarte sin razón, amarte sin un dios. Amarte sin perspectiva de no poder amarte, de no saber no amarte.
    Y amarte en esta tormenta emocional de odio, odiándote. Odiándote para toda la vida, tan sólo, por amarte.
    La luz violeta de un relámpago cierra los capítulos de la vida, y sin embargo, es la luz misma la que todo en ella conecta. Los sentires son pasajeros cuando los sentimientos son amorales, de la misma manera en que la oscuridad expresa la ausencia de luz. Así entiendo que la parte mía que permanece oscura a tu ser, sólo puede resignarse a estar encandilada por la luz de tu fuego el resto de su existencia, en tanto odiará para siempre, secretamente, su falta de vivacidad.
    Por eso, quémame hasta las entrañas, ya soy tan insensible al dolor que me provocas. Carbonízame con el sonido de un trueno reactivo, estoy tan presa de la inacción. Incinérame hasta las cenizas, existo tan solo a tu lado. Abrásame hasta el mismísimo infierno, nadie tan merecido lo puede tener como yo. Adelante, compleméntame y brillemos en una llama infinita, hasta que volvamos a ser polvo azulado de estrellas los dos. De lo contrario, siempre viviré en este azul platónico en que al mismo tiempo eres mi príncipe y esta tristeza imposible de color.

Trying to say Goodbye, but it’s Hot & Heavy.

*

Said you're gonna be here in a minute,
sitting in the mirror getting pretty.

Gotta look my best if we're gonna break up.
Gotta look my best if we're gonna break up.

I can hear you knocking at the front door,
and I know exactly what you came for.

Trying to say goodbye, but it's hot and heavy.
Trying to say goodbye, but it's hot and heavy.

You, touch me and it's breaking me down.
I'm telling you, let's just give it up and get down.

So come on!
Won't you give me something to remember?

Baby shut your mouth and turn me inside out.
Even though we couldn't last forever, baby..

You know what I want right now.

Hit me one more time, it's so amazing.
How you shook my world and flipped it upside down.

You're the only one who ever drove me crazy,
'cause you know me inside out.

I know that we probably shouldn't do this,
wake up in the morning feeling stupid.

Said that we were done, but you're all up on me.
Said that we were done, but you're all up on me.

Tell me, how we got in this position?
Guess I gotta get you out my system.

Trying to let you go, but it's not that easy.
Trying to let you go, but it's not that easy.

You, touch me and it's breaking me down.
I'm telling you, let's just give it up and get down.

So come on!
Won't you give me something to remember?

Baby shut your mouth and turn me inside out.
Even though we couldn't last forever, baby..

You know what I want right now.

Hit me one more time, it's so amazing.
How you shook my world and flipped it upside down.

You're the only one who ever drove me crazy,
'cause you know me inside out.

So come on!
Won't you give me something to remember?

Baby shut your mouth and turn me inside out.
Even though we couldn't last forever, baby..

You know what I want right now.

Hit me one more time, it's so amazing.
How you shook my world and flipped it upside down.

You're the only one who ever drove me crazy,
'cause you know me inside out.

Tell me what I am

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Some people say that I want you for your money, but I really want you for your body.

 

Pleased to meet you baby, I wanna be your honey, so let's go tell your daddy and mommy.

This won't get any easier now that your heart is beating in my hand, and I'll try not to destroy you baby even though we both know I can. Oh, you know I can.

 

Make love with the lights on, baby. Tell me what you see. Clear the bed to lie on, darling, make a mess of me.

 

Here's my dress to try on, baby, let me be your man. I will call you pretty, darling, tell me what I am.

C-c-c-can I have your number? Can I have you, baby? Can we run away together? Yes, oh, yes. I will walk on water, I will walk on fire. I will sell my soul to the devil, yes oh, yes.

This won't get any easier now that your heart is beating in my hand, and I'll try not to destroy you baby even though we both know I can. Oh, you know I can.

Make love with the lights on, baby, tell me what you see. Clear the bed to lie on, darling, make a mess of me.

Here's my dress to try on, baby. Let me be your man, I will call you pretty, darling tell me what I am.

Make love with the lights on, baby. Tell me what you see. Clear the bed to lie on, darling. Make a mess of me.

Here's my dress to try on, baby. Let me be your man. I will call you pretty, darling. Tell me what I am.